Feeling Lost But Hopeful


Well hello! 

How is everyone enjoying their New Year? We are about half way through the first month of the year and I’m feeling a little lost. I have made an active decision to do less blogging and all the work that goes into blogging and let me tell you, it’s an adjustment. I actually have to stop myself sometimes from falling back into old routines of “busying” myself. I realized a while back that much of what I did was simply busy work, which I felt was absolutely necessary and vital to the blog. But I’m seeing that it’s not really the case…I was working too much for too little. I have to say I’ve been doing great with the goal of slowing down and being in balance.

Occasionally I feel lost though, and I’ve felt a little depressed….but I don’t really know why unless it’s just the change of doing a lot less that makes me feel this way. I think its only human nature to “want” to be busy….to fill our time with something we think is rewarding. And so that’s the part I have to make sure is always in check…is it rewarding, does it make me happy, is it worth it, is it beneficial? 

So “lost” I still kinda feel…

But I’m much calmer and learning to adjust to more time in my life. I’m not good with “free time”, but I am learning to enjoy it. The only part of enjoying it is that I feel guilty. I know my husband is at work….and here I am enjoying free time? It doesn’t seem very fair right now. That’s where the guilt comes in. 

But its given me a lot of time to let me figure out what I want to do career-wise once my youngest is in school. And although I still have a few years to ponder ideas, I may be making steps to try to make sure it will really happen. Might involve taking some classes and getting an associate degree on top of my bachelors…but we’ll see what happens because other things have to happen before that happens.

So we will see what God has in store for our family this year.  


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I'm just a wife and mom of two boys trying to find her place in this world. I enjoy walks around the lake, bible journaling, and RV camping with my family.

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Heather Jones

I'm just a wife and mom of two boys trying to find her place in this world. I enjoy walks around the lake, bible journaling, and RV camping with my family.

26 thoughts on “Feeling Lost But Hopeful

    1. Yes its hard to grasp my mind around sometimes. But I’ve been sick the last two days, so the bed is what I’ve seen the most of the last few days. I’ll be excited to get back to doing things, but definitely not at the speed I was attempting before. It totally stressed me out. I want to say goodbye to stress this year!

  1. New routine definitely take time, the first 21 days is always the hardest but after that it will be better and become easier to follow 🙂 Wishing you the best in everything during this new year, happy 2016 🙂 Best wishes 🙂

  2. I feel you! We are very much alike in terms of that feeling of being “depressed”. I guess it’s because of some sort of sudden changes?

    1. That has to be it! Especially if the change is slowing down and doing less…it can feel like you aren’t accomplishing as much…but I think we have to think about what are we truly accomplishing by always being “busy”. Its kind of a mental thing.

  3. Ahhhhh new routines are always hard to get use to. I’m sure you will get a handle of it all in now time. Good luck in 2016 :):)

  4. I know that this time of rest and rejuvenation will do wonders for not only you but your family. (I’m not a big fan of with doing “nothing as well and will “find” something to keep myself busy with)
    I can’t wait to see what God has in store for you and what direction your writing will take.

  5. Totally feel you there, our blog is a bit of therapy for us, but we are also trying to be more selective on what we write about.

    I also like your idea of taking classes and learning something new!

  6. I feel the same way too juggling between personal life and job is not easy. Lately i decided to slow down too on my blog and social media and enjoying more my free time outdoor.

  7. Totally understand that!! I have been trying to decide the same thing myself, keep blogging or quit and pursue something else? I recently decided to start pushing my website quite hard and the first month went pretty well. I wish you the best with whatever you do! 🙂

    1. Thanks Prairie! Right now I’m still exploring what the world of blogging can do for me. But I’m only giving it until my youngest starts school. If its not successful, meaning I can live off of it by then, then I’m doing something else with my life.

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